the print fades

My shoe tree is gone :(

I discovered a few days ago that the shoe trees in the park closest to my many student digs were chopped down. I was in tears. Devastated. My world was rocked.

With the chopping of that tree I felt the last marks of me were erased from my old stomping grounds. Brunei is where I grew up, but this city in England is where I became an adult. And it seemed inconceivable that the niche I had so carefully carved for myself would prove to be quite so forgettable.

The night I left, a lost love and I braved the cold winter night. We wandered the park setting off fireworks, our breath in the air, our souls trying desperately to savour the little things. The warmth of his touch, the way he smelt of milk and the outdoors and possibility... Each saying goodbye piece by piece... Our last stop was the shoe tree, we flung my trainers onto its branches through spasms of laughter, we christened it... A little part of me left, where I left a part of my heart...

Lost One, do you remember? Lost One, will you remember now this piece of me is gone?

"For Us, For Love, For Always..." in Lover's Wood, where the squirrel population thrives, will we?

"Piece By Piece"
Katie Melua

First of all must go
Your scent upon my pillow
And then I'll say goodbye
to your whispers in my dreams.
And then our lips will part
In my mind and in my heart,
Cos your kiss
Went deeper than my skin.

Piece by piece
is how I'll let go of you
Kiss by kiss
Will leave my mind one at a time
One at a time

First of all must fly,
My dreams of you and I,
There's no point of holding on to those
And then our ties will break,
For your and my own sake,
Just remember,
This is what you chose

Piece by piece
Is how I'll let go of you
Kiss by kiss,
will leave my mind one at a time
One at a time

I'll shed like skin,
Our memories of lazy days,
And fade away the shadow of your face

Piece by piece
Is how I'll let go of you
Kiss by kiss,
Will leave my mind one at a time
One at a time
One at a time
One at a time

and that is how I bid you adieu...