The two cities that have shaped me. Home is where the heart is, but the heart yearns for a life that has been...
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
vigil
Ali my love,
It has been about a year and a half now and I wonder what it's like being kept in God's light as I know you are. So much has changed in my "Ally McBeal" life as you used to call it, and I know you would be smiling hearing all about it. I never understood being proud of the achievements of a friend until you.
Signs have been pointing my thoughts your way these past few days. I re- read the papers from when you left, coo-ed over your Brownie photograph, shed a tear for the fact that you had to feel your strength ebbing the way it did and had a moment when James Blunt's "You're Beautiful" came unbidden over the radio.
Your warmth and easy smile is what I remember. How you said, having only known me a week, that you couldn't imagine living on the other side of the world to me when I left England.
Love, Openness, Bravery... A life that was truly lived. That is what you are to me. And your candle burns forever bright.
I love you.
for crying out loud!
I understand that despite being here a year I am still in many respects a newbie however there are things that really irk me.
Firstly, don't finalise a draft to have me prepare the actual documents, only then to make further amendments. It's annoying on a number of different levels. I had initially patted myself on the back for a job well done, learnt from the first set of amendments and finally straightened it out in my head how that document should be done. Only for it all to go into a tailspin again when you re- amend your own amendments. Pfft! Also when the final document has been prepared and needs to be amended it's an annoying process of taking out the pages that have amendements on them and inserting new ones. It takes much longer than just printing new ones, but I feel bad doing that because I've already killed about a gazillion trees. Double pffft!
Secondly, although I am a newbie I am _not_ a secretary! I did _not_ go through years of law school to change "this" to "that" on a document. I know all about starting at the bottom and completely support it, however it is simply _not_ cost effective for me to be doing that because essentially the company would be paying me far too much to staple papers. I know the secretaries are brilliant at what they do and I have the utmost respect for them. I believe that know more about the nitty gritty procedure than most of their bosses. However, don't expect me to make all the stupid little amendments when you can. Should you believe I should know about something, show me what's wrong for me to file away in my little brain, then do it yourself. It works out much faster.
This is going to be a long day *deep breath*.
Firstly, don't finalise a draft to have me prepare the actual documents, only then to make further amendments. It's annoying on a number of different levels. I had initially patted myself on the back for a job well done, learnt from the first set of amendments and finally straightened it out in my head how that document should be done. Only for it all to go into a tailspin again when you re- amend your own amendments. Pfft! Also when the final document has been prepared and needs to be amended it's an annoying process of taking out the pages that have amendements on them and inserting new ones. It takes much longer than just printing new ones, but I feel bad doing that because I've already killed about a gazillion trees. Double pffft!
Secondly, although I am a newbie I am _not_ a secretary! I did _not_ go through years of law school to change "this" to "that" on a document. I know all about starting at the bottom and completely support it, however it is simply _not_ cost effective for me to be doing that because essentially the company would be paying me far too much to staple papers. I know the secretaries are brilliant at what they do and I have the utmost respect for them. I believe that know more about the nitty gritty procedure than most of their bosses. However, don't expect me to make all the stupid little amendments when you can. Should you believe I should know about something, show me what's wrong for me to file away in my little brain, then do it yourself. It works out much faster.
This is going to be a long day *deep breath*.
Monday, June 11, 2007
the things that get us through
I stumbled across this prayer/ poem that I found last year. It was written by a survivor of hurricane Katrina. Take from it what you will. I know I did.
So God grant me the faith to better understand,
That my heartaches are a part of your great plan.
Help me be thankful of angels sent, to aid me
In my time of need, and not resent them.
Help me not blame others for my pain, but rather,
Give me the courage to accept what I can't change.
DO not allow evil to devour me from within,
Leaving my doubting, weary soul darkened to sin.
For Satan preys on the weakened soul, as it
wallows in self pity and grows cold.
So God grant me the strength I need to carry on,
and the faith I need to mend.
That my heartaches are a part of your great plan.
Help me be thankful of angels sent, to aid me
In my time of need, and not resent them.
Help me not blame others for my pain, but rather,
Give me the courage to accept what I can't change.
DO not allow evil to devour me from within,
Leaving my doubting, weary soul darkened to sin.
For Satan preys on the weakened soul, as it
wallows in self pity and grows cold.
So God grant me the strength I need to carry on,
and the faith I need to mend.
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