Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Sweet Sweet Saigon


Ho Chi Minh... or Saigon as the romantic in me prefers was indeed unexpected. In the most wonderful of ways. I came to that city, with no concept of what it was and left with a yearning to come back.


The air is thick with an old school charm, a kind of exciting uncertainty and the scent of romance of the long forgotten colonial type. It's indescribable but oh so palpable, your heart races, your dreams seem electrifyingly tangible and just within reach, if you stretched just that little bit more.


It has the air of something that time forgot, or almost forgot, and you expect to see the old school english tourist who considers himself a traveller (for a tourist and a traveller are very different things you see) in his khaki's "discovering Asia" and "finding himself", walking at you from around the next corner. It's a little like the feeling one gets when you walk into Temple Gardens in London, only there you get magically whisked away to the era of Dickens and Great Expectations instead.


Travel at night, by motor bike, I beseech you, it's the only way to see it. Be an armchair (or any chair for that matter) anthropologist at one of the many intimate, tucked away little cafe's. Cry for the lost humanity at the War Memorial Museum for it gives you an understanding of the people of this wonderful city.


Then leave and yearn to return, for at the end of all this you will have left your heart in Saigon. The distant strains of the Saxaphone solo from "Last Night of the World" bidding you a bittersweet farewell at the very edges of your consciousness.

Image courtesy of Image37 on Flickr.

everytime I think of you...


I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
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Bizzare Love Triangle
New Order/ Frente

spiderwebs


Stranger,

How conflicted I feel towards you.

I understand the position you're in. I just don't understand why it seems so complicated to you when it is definitely not. To me it looks like sheer cowardice on your part. And it's SO unflattering and SO out of character and I am SO disappointed in you, yet I empathise and wonder how you are.

When perhaps my feelings towards the situation we found ourselves in should have mattered and made a difference, you took matters into your own hands. This was perhaps due to your own feelings of guilt. However, you refused to see that those actions had repercussions on me.

And in this clash of bumbling elephants I feel very much like collateral damage. Uncalled for and highly unnecessary.

Feeling lost and powerless, it frustrates me that this situation could be so easily resolved if you two elephants would sit and talk. Honestly, frankly with mutual love and respect. You would think that two with such a seemingly close bond could do this. Are you scared? Because it's easier to forgive a total stranger than it is to forgive a friend?

And now I've lost the pair of you, and there's not a darned thing i can do about it.

My what a tangled web we weave...

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

my life or something like it


Malam... Terdengar sepantun lagu...

I have been struggling for a post that describes the current flux my life is in... then I listened to this song and some things fell into place.

My dear Adopted Bruneian this one is for you.

For reminding me, with this song, that at the end of the day the deepest parts of my soul whisper in Malay.

For your warmth, your humour and most of all your Friendship that knows no bounds.

And you will make Milo ping for me on my 75th birthday right?


Malam by Shades

Malam...
Terdengar sepantun lagu
Irama di malam syahdu
Gaya nada rindu

Oh! Malam...
Hati resah raya sunyi
Jiwaku resah dan sepi
Waktu Malam Hari

Jangan sedih hati
Oh, Janganlah rasa pilu
Senyum... Senyum bunga
Kuntum, Mekar segar dan mengharum

Oh ! Malam...
Sungguh kau berseri seri
Wajahmu di malam hari
Hilang rindu hati

Jangan sedih hati
Oh, Janganlah rasa pilu
Senyum... Senyum bunga Kuntum
Mekar segar dan mengharum

Oh! Malam....